this is 40….

For 6 months I have been mulling around the idea of writing down what it felt like to turn 40, and for 6 months, I have written a few lines and stalled out….That’s it.  That’s all I’ve got.

Haha! Just kidding!  Sort of….But seriously, how did I get here?  Aren’t I supposed to be 22 still?  Clearly, I have conflicting thoughts on all of this!  One minute 40 fells so old, and the next, it feels like I’m just getting started….

I have friends who are older and wiser, and they swear that 40 is just the start.  My mother has always said that she would never go back before 50.  Most days, I agree with them.  I am still learning so much and figuring out how to navigate so much.  There’s so much I want to do.  So many ideas floating around in my head that I want to bring to fruition.  So many places I want to go and experiences I want to have.

So, I have decided that this IS just the start!  The start of me doing me, unapologetically!  I am going to use the china and silver.  I am going to write the note.  I am going to set the table and make it formal.  I am going to dress up and wear red lipstick.  I am going to bring back punch and the use of a punch bowl (I know this one is random, but Amos understands).  I am going to take the trip.  I am going to not be afraid of what someone might think.  Period. 

So THIS is 40, and it is AMAZING!!!  Wear the evening gown in the middle of the creek!